How do you feel about...?

Sorry if hearing this is something repetitive, it's just something that constantly bothers me as much as I go ahead and do it. You probably at least noticed I tend to be 'Hm, I'm pushing things, aren't I? ^^' ' kind of light-responses, it kind of comes from the guilt that this rant's about...

Ever since the bloodied petals RP started, I've been feeling like I've been pushing my standards a whole lot... Not just with how strong Crayis can be, but also with several things I do: the HSR, elementals, Crayis using permanancy and essence altering spells to attack anti-magic.
Despite the fact that I constantly introduce it as open, variable things that don't necessarly occur, it feels like...I'm pushing...
(Especially when it comes to Crayis's level of power and any magic permanancy power)
I'm not really sure why I'm even bothering to say this, I mean, I'm doing it because I want to go ahead and make the post with that kind of content, and the lack of disapproval, and seemingly to some extent approval, makes me feel at home and happy to do so, but I get these emotions that what I'm doing is tolerated and unacceptable. -.- Even more, it's not like I feel like I'm willing to so easily ready to change it on the whim of someone else's emotions. =>.o;

So...uhm...say what you want to say, really. Just breaking out into the open saying this helps me out a bunch the way it is.

(oh, uhm...and...graahh, I think I can rant about the fact that nobody really gets it when I describe things, especially that I don't think anyone'll make any sense off of the makirak species D: >.< )

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..You know, I think I'll rant about my lack of actually ranting in a rant topic.

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oh, uhm...and...graahh, I think I can rant about the fact that nobody really gets it when I describe things,

Truest part of all.

The rest sucks though! Yeah! That's right! You suck and we HATE you!

And Evon stole your wallet....

Zomg! No way! I love your posts. And its not like this forum's official ish. Its like only us and everyone is cool. Its workin with the petals Rp, because I have a thing for NPCs and you've done fine. If i ever have an issue, I'll bring it up. So yes,my silence is approval in a way. Im cool with it really.
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Im just glad you like my site -Hearts-

She's lying. She is just gonna suck yur blood out and harvest yur organs. >< Eli is mean like that.

*Noddles lightly* I just got an attack of guilt, and couldn't really drop it without bringing up a topic directly...I think it might have been setting down lore (the stuff about HSR and elementals) that really must've done it, maybe.
Thanks, and sorry for the paranoia. ^^;

and...suck blood...harvest organs? *hugs Evon* COUSIN!

<_< Good point...

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