wont be on for a long time.

Subject: wont be on for a long time. Thu May 07, 2009 11:48 pm

hay guy's.
um yea so i am having a really hard time typing the all out. so bare with me.
the other night we where leaving my husband's parent's house. They where fallowing us with the girls.
um..
all 4 of them are no longer with us.
i can't really say if or when i will be back.
but that's why.
it would be really helpful if the topic about the girl's would be erased by the time i get back..
sorry every one.
Rena James.

Subject: Re: wont be on for a long time. Fri May 08, 2009 1:37 am

Oh my fucking god. I'm so sorry, if you ever wanna call me, pm me and I'll give you my number. Love you girl, if there is anything in my power to do with my site, don't be afraid to ask!!!

Subject: Re: wont be on for a long time. Fri May 08, 2009 1:39 am

I am so sorry Rena, word can not express what im thinking. Please take care, I wish you the best.

Subject: Re: wont be on for a long time. Fri May 08, 2009 8:19 am

You know, I often quote things and mean them... but for what it's worth, this one I hope can help you. Maybe, just maybe, this might mean something...

Why, are the innocent always punished? Why the sacrafice? Why the pain?

There aren't any promises, only that some get called, some get saved.

They will never know the hardship for those of us whom are left behind.

So we release these souls from this world with a glad heart, for within each seed, there is a promise of a flower, and within each death, no matter how small, there is a promise of a new life.

Subject: Re: wont be on for a long time. Fri May 08, 2009 7:20 pm

thank's guy's
for everything.
there funeral's where this morning.
on the bright side.. i didn't lose ALL of my children in one horrid swoop. The salvation army in town is coming tomorrow to clean out the room and paint over the wall's, turn it back into my office...even though i will never be able to go back in there again. might be looking for a new house all together. Landan is to young to under stand what is going on, but me dilling with postpartum and now this had gottin him all a flutter. So i am concentrating on spending as much time as i can with him... even thought i just want to curl into i tiny ball and diaper from the world. But it's not about me, i have to be strong for my son. *sigh*

"2 week's barely that. and you where taken from me. Waite for me if there is a heaven...because i am walking though hell."

Subject: Re: wont be on for a long time. Fri May 08, 2009 7:58 pm

You know a good friend apst a song down to me when i lost someone so here is a song for you just listen to it if you get the chance. It helped me even though i cant imagine what you are going through i do wish you the best and hope things are ok.

Angel - Kelly Clarkson

Subject: Re: wont be on for a long time. Sat May 09, 2009 2:08 am

I'm glad you found some strengh, I'd hate to lose you to a pit of depression. Keep fighting